How can I become "less aware" to give a special speech?

Q: How do you feel after attaining higher consciousness?
Q: Why do people want to be alone after  attaining wisdom?
Q: Why do enlightened people prefer to be alone?
Krishna:
Higher consciousness?
I will have to forget it sometimes to live like a normal being! Otherwise you cannot live a normal life!
Whether I am walking, talking, sitting, standing or  awake doing things, observing things, knowledge and vision are continuously and uninterruptedly presented to me. It takes great effort to keep myself calm despite everything.  
Don't misrepresent me with what is contrary to fact. I don't like that a bit! A fact should be presented as it is without exaggerating it!
This is the vision:
The atoms in my body and those of  others too have many 'past' forms and lives,  and 'future' forms and lives - the atoms and energy  in my body taking different forms both living and non-living-  that is, one birth- one form, second change  from partial part of my body - with some atoms of 'my' body-another form, third change - separate entity ,… a hundred births, … a hundred thousand forms,  I see 'my matter' that formed my body  and that of other beings  too passing away and reappearing, involved in inferior and superior, fair and unfair, fortunate and unfortunate dramas of lives and forms, and I understand how living beings change their lives, shapes, forms in an eternal recycling drama.
This is not reincarnation, mind it, just re-cycling!
And how science directs this eternal show.
That is the time
When I cannot differentiate between I and you. When I can see everybody and everything as a single unit.
My mind becomes a vacuum - there is nothing to feel , no sadness, no happiness, no jealousy,  no anger, no fear, no worry, no misery, no hatred.
There's another more fundamental level to this. Transcending back to the Source (universe) makes you lose your identity as separate from the Source. You're no longer "a person."  Not much to go on, is it?
Then create a goal to help everybody around. But why do you want to change the ways of the SOURCE? You ask yourself this big Q. Why?
 
Maybe that is one of the ways of working of the universe too.
How can you live like a human being then?
I will have to pull myself back to the usual ways. Forget all that to be myself again!
That is a great paradox!
Knowing everything but pretending not knowing it!
Realizing the eternal truth but feign ignorance!
Have great visions but invent blindness!
Want to help, but 'who', or 'what'?
One you helping another you!
You helping yourselves? Your other forms?
What do you do then?
Weave a cocoon around you (getting back to the 'I' act again) to avoid this irony!
Enlightenment is realizing there is no lack or incompleteness…so being alone is completely comfortable. One who attained  wisdom of the highest form  would always prefer to be alone- self abiding. And find uninterrupted inner bliss!
Because there is no-nothing! Or no-anything!
Understood anything?
Moreover, I am highly empathetic!

I certainly can feel others’ feelings even if they don’t tell me anything and without any effort on my part.

I feel the feelings of others around me. Sometimes I feel I am them living their lives!

It happens to the extent that it disturbs me a lot if those feelings are sad or painful. I try to control my response but the initial feelings are not in my control.

They are more intense in some places like hospitals, the ICUs, and the trauma care centres and that was why I used to avoid them earlier.

When one of my aunts was on her deathbed (she had liver cancer), although she was at home, I fainted, unable to bear the feeling of her pain. The doctor attending her was so surprised that he told me not to visit her again. The feeling becomes that intense.

Now after thorough critical thinking and training of my mind I can control some of it but not all.

I don’t know whether this is a gift or a curse because I can never harm anyone either physically or mentally because I can understand how much pain they can feel.

My face will become a mirror to your feelings. You can clearly see your feelings in mine!

Sometimes I avoid people if their feelings denote something ‘bad’, ‘cruel’ or anything that comes under the heading ‘negative’.

It is not easy to carry others’ emotional states too. That is why I prefer solitude rather than being in physical social spaces.

If I visit physical social spaces, I can feel others' minds and motives, read in between lines, see what is inside the masks people are wearing, feel strange vibrations all people emit, and this is very uncomfortable and burdensome. Because your mind will try to analyse what is going on, how to protect yourself from all this and this type of atmosphere drains me. So I prefer solitude to preserve my energy to do useful things, to walk on a purposeful path, not to waste it on what is not  desirable.

All this might feel strange to you but it is a daily reality to me. I prefer to be alone. That serves my mission better.